Today I realized one very important thing: it’s difficult (very difficult, thank you very much) to be an excellent MS student and to be a very effective employee all at the same time. This is what I am trying to achieve, and by doing that I am compromising both my studies and work.
At grad school, I have to invest extra time to study lessons outside my class hours (pretty much the same thing you do in undergrad studies), but only this time it has to be few notches higher. Usually I fail to do this because I have a work to be busy at, a screwed up sleeping pattern to bear with and a workout program I am very obsessed to follow.
At work, I have to do 8 full hours of work which usually would increment to at least 10 to 12 office hours. On top of the responsibilities describe under my role, I have to drive extra initiatives and projects that would not only help me have an edge when it comes to performance rating but would also give me space to develop leadership skills, advocate the causes I’m passionate about, and that can contribute a lot in helping me become a better person. The need to consistently prove yourself to be worthy of your compensation is a very very tiresome process – well, after a long run it is. It never ends.
I want to pursue further studies. I want to be good at what I do in the corporate world. But being really good in both worlds seems to me a tough feat. Like what I previously said in one of my Twitter/Plurk status, “It’s difficult but not impossible”. I really really want to believe that and stand by that statement. But the thing is, I can’t keep up with it anymore – the work and the grad school altogether. It feels like I need to choose between the two which is the better endeavor to invest my time into.
Earlier when I was studying for my CS210 exam, I came across one simple problem and the solution’s a common sense it struck me like lightning that I can actually apply it in real life scenarios.
For geeks out there, the problem was to solve a recurrence by giving its asymptotically tight bound. The recurrence given is simply T(n) = T(n/2) + T(√n) + n. Obviously, T(n) = Θ(n) because you can just drop the lower order term which is T(√n) because √n is smaller than n/2.
So with that I actually realized it’s ok to ignore less important things because when you fulfill the most important ones, less important ones will not matter anymore (or at least it would have lesser impact), and by important I mean with respect to what you want to achieve because what seems to be important to other people may not be the case for you and vice versa.
Now the whole point of this post is.. ocrap I don’t know the point exactly.